I cried throughout my whole shower, and when i heard, it came as a huge shock to me. I didn't want to believe it, but even though before i heard, when i was telling myself 'i'm already prepared because i already expected it,' when i heard the news, my first reaction was 'no way' and then my heart just dropped to the pit of my stomach.
heck, even now...
my eyes are already full of tears, i can't even see what i'm typing.
She was in a box, lying down on the floor, her four legs all spread out, when i touched her, she was as hard as a rock, her eyes are still open.
Today is yue's birthday, i want to go to her and say 'can i give you a hug' but i know she's really sad, even though she's not showing it. Just now when papa called and asked what happened, I refused to speak and passed the phone to yue. She didn't dare to say the words 'she died' so she just said 'she's not moving and she's really hard', as if she really doesn't want to believe it.
I really can't believe it, i really can't.
And now my tears start to pour down my cheeks again...